your pain is my penence and I

I take your bad and ingest like wine yet bitter taste you are so fine yet I can't say you were mine but I loved and deeply I'm not that devine. inside the host of your blame game to you of what you can cast and depart from you. the biggest one that I deem unfair is to call me crazy and say you don't care, as you throw me out in the coldest of air, as I cry I see you evil you snared.you say I'm a liar and accuse me of having perpetual affairs when you cheat and you never said that you were sorry it is my pain I offer to Jesus and no I'm not perfectly it all day yet I ignored it cause you meant more but it's ok I'll have a good shake as I wake up to brutal assaults I cant shake.