Your Abuse

I wish you knew how it feels when you downplay your abuse How can you be sorry when you dont change what you do? You laughed and made a joke of it Say'in you didnt hit me like a man. Like that's the only way it counts, downplayed it, disrespecting who I am. Can't count the times you yanked me around by my hair Through my house and in the car, you didnt seem to care Shoved my head into the wall another thing you liked to do Expelled your snot all over me from your nose you blew Countless times of choking me another way you cared. Spit on me, flicked lit cigarettes into my face and hair Kicked me in the leg so hard it's permanently discolored Kicked me in the cunt now tell me, who does this to their lover? Hit me in the kneecap I thought you broke my leg Shoved me in the shoulder blades when i turned to walk away Neighbors saw you smash my head into the window pane You pinned me on the couch and then headbutted me in the face. You broke my things and tried to wereck my car. You turned on me so much, a monster is what you are. Held a gun to your head after spinning the barrel Though I saw you watch it close You wanted me to believe you were going to kill us both.