You still follow me

I see you here. I see you everywhere. on a summer day when the trees are green and the wind is blowing. the windows are down the truck the love is still in my heart. I see a white truck and I still hyperventilate the thought of seeing your face again would knock the window out of me. I hide from you when I go to town. your house still feels like home. youre not the same person anymore I'm not either. I see you making me laugh with the grill you bought with your grandparents money. i broke you. I'm so sorry. losing you broke me too.