you should know

my head is always filled with promises I believe you will keep. I hang onto every word k owing the time of me even existing in your world is down to seconds. regardless of my past lessons I work hard to be what I think will make you want me. then the same lesso. that keeps creeping in si ce I was a child comes back-- I was never going to be enough. I am always a temporary part in everyone's life. a lesson. a stepping stone. so many times I cry as I watch myself disappearing the from the lives of the ones I love and they never seem to notice. willing to change everything, anything. then that feeling is back -again- as usual I am never going to be enough. people find happiness, people laugh I stress, how do inget a cpuple.more moments of yhus false sense of love? always packing, always my time to leave. always me. just never can put a finger on what makes me a temporary figure in every life I enter. I feel doom. how could I think again I was really someone's everything. stupid, ugly, annoying, just go away, just STAY away Kristina. then you will finally make those you lo get to have around you happy.