you saved me

you ruined it you ruined my plans my plans of ending it all of ending this pain this pain that's slowly fading disappearing from my life disappearing from my mind all thanks to you you ruined my plans in that moment I hated you for that but now I thank you for saving my life saving me from that pain I had it's still there but it hurts way less than before I thought it would never happen I hope you will stay by my side I hope I'm helping you like you're helping me I hope I make you happy sometimes I miss that pain I was so used to it i forgot it wasn't normal the constant relapses the constant attempts the constant pain you ruined my plans but I love you even more that I did before for saving me saving my life