you don't like me for most of

I stopped making friends I'm not good at it I think I'm better at being alone and writing poetry scrolling on my phone I'm not suited for friends I'm not wanted I'm not sure I'll ever be because my only experience with friendship is what you gave me and God it was the best I ever had and you didn't even like me for most of it and I couldn't even tell I'm afraid of making friends the same ways I'm afraid of strangers where I don't know if they're planning to hurt me or love me and I don't know which would be worst