you choose it

I never got to express my pain, I never got to explain my pain, you never got to hear my pain, you never got to see my pain, you never got to feel my pain, the dying pain in my body, In my head, in my voice, in my eyes. but you did see it, you did hear it, I know you could feel it from me, you saw it with the way I looked, the way I talked or the way I stopped talking, the way my eyes were filled with tears, the way my grades dropped, the way my friends disappeared, the way my everything disappeared. you knew it. you know it. you chose to ignore it. you still choose to ignore it. you choose to ignore me. forever and always right?