you and me and the memories

I always think about our memories And I wonder if any of that was real Did you actually have a heart to feel How much of a counterfeit do you need to be , it's insane the amount of power you have to turn me up inside out . You changed every thought of mine And the way you played with my heart And how a wicked part of me , still want you back I always say that I moved on But oh the things I would do to get back to the past When you weren't as cruel and I didn't get fooled so fast And I still wonder about the guilt that I feel in my chest For letting you go Knowing that you did before , and you'd do it a hundred times more I feel guilty for my pity of you , and I feel guilty for things that weren't real Because now I'm so fooled by you I wonder what's actual and what's not I just wish I could erase you from my memories So I could live with the peace I had 4 years ago Before meeting you And ruining everything I had .