YOU

I still feel your hands on me, hitting me and pushing me I still hear you voice in my head screaming at me calling me names making me feel bad about myself. I still have flashbacks of those nights , I have to re-live those moments over and over again. It's like a nightmare , I feel like I can't breathe anytime I think about what had happened. I feel like im dying inside and you don't even know it , I'm harming myself, cutting myself because of the pain you brought me . I'm the villain in your story but you don't understand the hate I have for you now we were supposed to rebuild a bond , you were supposed to be there , you were supposed to be apart of my life as I grew older you never called on birthdays , newyears nor christmas you never even checked up on me , you made me feel like the unwanted child . You brought me nothing but pain, depression and suicide thoughts . I get panic attacks because of you and no one even knows it, I'm silently suffering and no one even notices cause I always keep a smile on my face to not make the people around me worried about me. I hate it when people raise they voices at me because it only reminds me of that night. I hate it , I hate you . You were supposed to be