Years Back

Don't know, can't even recall how I have been years back. I only got the feeling that I have been perhaps the same. Or, a little different than now. Maybe, I was only good inside my mind. Or, I thought I would be better someday. Oh! But I heard the laugh from the past. But wait! I felt those tears too.. Perhaps that was fake, or was it life. Why am I always in the same tumultuous pattern of maybe? Anyway! I can't even recall how I have been years back.