would you miss me?

I wonder often if I was gone or wasn't yours, would you sit and wonder about me? would you try to make yourself better or never try again. would you shed a tear? act like nothing happened between us? I'm fighting for what we had and your lack of effort makes me unhappy. I give you my world and you reject me until you feel needy and suddenly I'm cold. You don't take accountability, baby. You don't check on me, or text me goodmorning/goodnight. I've loved you for so long and you make me feel like such a pest. I don't wanna leave but I want you to be better, think a little, feel alittle. i wonder if I had never existed at all, would you feel a sense of missing me? of course you won't, you'd tell me that's an impossible scenario and you slowly realize I'm just another crazy woman. baby, I wanna be happy again, but I want so bad to be happy with you. I hope if anything happens, you'll come back to me. but I just hope, baby these sad songs feel right, baby I love you. baby, your idea in my mind feels so right, come back to me, or I'll fizzle out and be unhappy. do you want your sunflower to wilt?