Worth it?

I wonder Was it worth it? You betrayed yourselves. Sold your dignity. Your values. All for what? Normality? For that you suffer a fate worse than death. You must carry mountains of resentment, Of guilt. You became weary of those you tried pleasing. You know that they only like that role you play. lest you do anything ridiculous! Your efforts would've been in vain. How long can you keep this up? pleasing these people you hate? All for not being seen alone? All for not being seen as ridiculous? Being ridiculous does not look so bad anymore. Does it? At least they have principles which they follow At least they can carry happiness without any bitter aftertaste. It might have been better to be alone. Than in the company of the vain.