Worst memory

There was a time indeed, I feel i should forget all this, That cold antagonistic night When all was disclosed, How i wish it was concealed forever Maybe even never born Why so soon? Why to me? When i didn't know my identity, All was alright. I was okay to be abused But never okay with my identity, I remember that night when you said, Am not your child. You never give birth to kids like me. I resemble mom but it was never my fault. Why did you call me acurse and a burden to your marriage? I wish you never reveal my identity At four years, I had known my disgusting identity You told me that folly truth. You led to my mental illness Worst of all, after the depression, You called me a psychiatric, Why did you tell my playmates that I was a toxic child? You told your children to keep distance from me All you desired for me was death. You taught me to live a solitary life Those days when i joined my playmates for a game, They all run away. How i wish i was never born My playmates called me an insane too, Because you instilled in them that As a result, Am in solitude now At school,i barely have friends. I am afraid they would subject me to that mental toture, I feel my identity should never be disclosed Cathy.