Worst case scenario

The feeling of regret is like blazing fire but oh so cold Like the daggers for piercing the soul The remnant and purpose of many woes I wish I could traverse all time To change what I've done Break the habits to hard to kill And the misery disguised as fun It's all bitter sour with no meaning Just kill me now for I wish I were dreaming Less I cave in to my destruction, self pity, scheming Oh what a wonderful show the devil loves viewing The hurt and the torture of one's actions on display For everyone to see bewildered with thoughts dissaray No hero to save me left on my own No one to save me, I wish I were home Trust in who? What a action so bold Trust in you? I rather be alone My mind racing to memories of the past Where my hope and goals live and last Wisdom so old but useless to be used I want an out but I'm too scared to approve Ready to aim or knife to the belly This isn't the way but I feel so heavy Just leave me be I rather go silently.