Words Left Unsaid #1

I lost you when I needed you most and you left abruptly. I can't blame you. The ringer is the least of what you dealt with. I wish "im sorry" could erase the things I've said. the hurt I've caused you. I blame myself more than anything. and I shouldn't have to do that, but I do. Because I feel, that if I didn't do the things that pushed you away, we wouldn't have this gap between us, and radio silence separate the space we could be filling with love right now. I have a lifetime's worth of love, I could still give to you. and if a lifetime is the time I'll have to wait. until you take the time, to open your fragile heart. I'll wait and wait and wait because I hate empty promises. and I made promises I vowed to never break. Until our talks aren't filled with anger, guilt, uncomfortableness and loathing. I'll have love for you, like no other. I'll still care for you through all of it. And I hope that's okay. Even if it is never reciprocated. I'll always have this love. Thank you for helping me find it.