Woke up

I just woke up from my bed, feeling a bit tired or maybe exhausted, but I got the sleep time I wanted, maybe I'm just nervous maybe I'm anxious maybe.. I'm not ready to wake up from this scary reality I've been living, my eyes feels like there about to fall, the sleepiness I get the more everything seems dark, my body is stiff, it hurts and I just want to lay this down and close my eyes to feel the soft and cozy grass while hearing the wind blow so loudly making me feel so relaxed, dreaming to be with someone while laying on their lap looking at them smiling at me and I'm smiling back, but I guess I'm dreaming way to much, there will be no way a person could smile at me with their eyes lock unto me, no person will be able to make me laugh and get tired of me and just leave me behind again to go to someone who's worth it to be with, unlike me who's worthless