without you

I have ruined his life. I have ruined everyone's life. I have ruined mine. Because of one stupid thing I did. But the thing is, it's not just one. It's more than one, and that was just the big one. Why must I be like this? I can't do this anymore. Please, Lord, help me. I need you to help. Please fix it. What can I do to help you? Is that what you want or need? Just tell me what it is I have to do? I just can't change without you.