°Without a trace°

I want this feeling to go away— The one that makes my breath delay And leaves my chest in silent ache, A weight too heavy now to fake. I hate it when you get so mad, And how I get so deeply sad. It keeps me lying in my bed, With heavy thoughts inside my head. You call me lazy••full of blame, But when I cry, you look away. You won’t even face the shame That grows inside me every day. I’ve had thoughts of being gone, Of leaving to a place unknown. But now it’s getting dangerous These thoughts won’t leave me alone. I wanted you, I begged you••stay. But you left cold, without a trace... Now tell me°°who am I supposed to hold, When all I needed was your embrace?