WipingMyEyes

I come too unaware of my for long despair.. see my eyes hasn't watered in many years and my heart hasn't hurt since I was a young man. but I found myself and depression having your chest feel like it's caving in to the pit of your stomach hating to wake up feeling so disgusted and alone beyond alone, feeling alone in a crowded room. no words fell on my ears that were comforting enough to push back my actions in fact I looked forward to the day I didn't breathe I looked ahead for the eternal rest. I cried for the first time in many years the moment I woke up and that hospital bed tied to the rails still prisoner ,as I barely escaped hell itself. I learned one truth that day most suiciders want to die but at the moment they crossed the line fear-sets in and if they could go back they would from beyond the grave. you see worries faded as my life wasted there on that floor yet I feared nothing except finding out we are all truly alone passing the crossroads. Tears fell uncomfortable and uncontrollable for hours it felt like heaven in that brief moment .There is a God and we do have his mercy.