Why'm I afraid to fall in love

Why am I afraid to fall in love, People lay out all their reasons but this is why I am aversive, I can't explain to someone why I cover my hands, I can't explain to someone which is my favorite band, And he wouldn't even try to understand, I don't want to depend on someone when I'm having a panic attack, Because when I like someone, I immediately get attached, Knowing they'll hurt me, I allow it, Saying "I like you", is hard for me to admit. I can't make eye contact, Because his stare would make an impact, An impact I'm not ready for, It will be as if his standing in front of my heart, And knocking on the door, "Let me in!" I hear him scream, I hear him say, And I would question myself day by day. I can't handle when someone stare at me like I'm a masterpiece, When people just made me feel like a piece, I'd question me, "What does he even see?"