Why'd You Leave

The pain in my heart as I lay here crying Aches and swallows me whole I become a monster of emotions Why did he do this to me? Why do i have to deal with the pain when hes the ass hole? I wish I could vanish I wish I could leave this place No pain no sadness Just gone Nobody would notice nobody would care Right? I cant do that to my family What would my friends think? What would they do? I cant keep pushing my emotions away like they are jars in storage stacked on top of eachother. This is tiring Learning to live with the pain Becoming new, like an onion, I shed a layer and becoming something new, something that you havent touched. Relizing that I dont need you, removing that layer, taking the jars down, finding myself. Being a fresh person, changing every bit about me that you liked, having a new life, loving myself before anyone else, finding confidence in myself. I still wonder why you left