why we think too much

it's difficult to me draw my life a day. sometimes i plan my routine activity and sometimes don't do this. i want to be a value womens but other side i know it's too hard and i don't know how to reach like them. i waste my age for useless things. when i do something and think it's no impact instans to me finally i stop it. and the result i am hopeless to change my life. it's stupid opinion and bad ways to ruin my life. and then i am not confident and that cause i afraid to try a new thing. i am surrender before found where the start. before i know where the ways. i cant control myself. i am weird. and now i have wasted time to write a shit words. think too much. and the result i am not to be anything i want. and be overthinker. more time spending to think why i am stuck. without know i can reach my day to be a productive people. with many problem that come to me. and the biggest problem is me. finally, i need God to give me a direction to through the day. may Allah bless me.