why should I

there are things we can't see, why try to understand it? there are people who don't care, why should I continue to reframe it. these are wonders I can't smell, so how could I change it, my life I mean is only in your hands that may be?, how come this dreadful curse came upon me?, wait did I not mention that I was an imperfect beginning to find me fit to be me?, did I forget to explain what you can't see? please give me answers. I'm beginning to feel numb to these questions. if I must ask if you could understand me then maybe I shouldn't have asked you to allow yourself to encomprehend me on purpose.