why only why

Yes im being so active for attention Yes it sounds like my problems are just inventions Yes i know why only why would someone like me do something like that why only why? would i feel better if i try? why? they, my so called friends, ask why won't you stop, stop pretending, stop being someone you're not why only why? the answer, the awnser it lays on my tongue but how it hurts, how it burns i may understand i may get it still understandings, getting it hurt even more. now you why only why, Yes im being so active for attention Yes it sounds like my problems are just inventions yes I feel like being forgotten if not constantly being loud, getting attention.