why??

Everlasting, happiness, forever It not in my own vocabulary Why me ? It a question I ponder on lately Why is it me that have to beg Why do I have to bend or belittle myself Why do I have to give in Why can't someone do the same to me I don't know if I don't put myself first Or I do not love myself enough Everyone say pick yourself But why do I always want to be picked by others When others get it at free will Sometimes I think it me Maybe I ask for too much Maybe i overrated myself Maybe I am being too picky Why can't I also have a fairy tail ending Does everything have to end with me being rejected All I ask for is to be wanted and loved All i want is to be the poem not the poet Why me ???? That question ponder in my mind like a fish roaming in a pond . It never leaves but I guess in another life time for me . Guess we will see then .