why lord

Why is life this way? I don't want it this way. I just can't take it. I mean, I don't want to die. Yet agian what am I to do? Cause I never meant to cause trouble. Yet it seems to be that way. Don't you see it, Lord? Can't you help? I mean, in truth, I don't want to die. Yet there's no peace. What other escape is there? I don't want to leave here and have her quiet. Yet I don't want this crazyness. I don't want to leave here. Yet there's no peace. What am I to do lord please help. This can't happen it has to end. It has to fix please lord. See it and hear me please, Lord. Fix it all. Please help, Lord.