Why life is like this

Trying a lot of things was such a dream but why am i being stopped? In such a long way in my life i was never given a chance to do things with such freedom In the game of life all i ever wanted was to play but i had to shed tears for it i had to be desperate for it In rides of everyday i wanna go somewhere else where i am free to stay, to be happy and no fees for it But why life is like this i was stopped from experiencing the things i loved i was judge for wanting,trying and dreaming Now my heart is filled with so much envy, jealousy and loneliness i dont wanna feel like this when all i ever wanted was to experience genuine things in life like others where it wasnt limited and i have all the time where i didnt have to beg just to be happy where i dont have to worry just to have time in reaching my dream life is unfair, but the truth is people are because if it werent for them life wouldnt be like this