why I'm so emotional.

when you were born I was so happy dreaming of the memories we would make together.. your firsts. your first words, the first time you spilled spaghetti on yourself, even first steps.. Sadly celebrating the holidays and missing important stuff in your life as well as your brother has been taken away from me. I dreamed of tucking you in at night reading you a story whatever you both needed. I missed your first day of kindergarten I missed picture day... I can't keep up on what you both are interested in cause I barely see you anymore you grow and turn into new kids everytime I see you. you went from paw patrol and disney to disney and marvel.. You are both my sons and that won't ever change you. Boys are my world. I love looking at your pictures I love looking at you play around. I love watching movies with you. our visits may not be long but they will always be memorable to me. I love the hugs you give me they always make my day when I am lonely. celebrating holidays without you is the worst thing I can ever do.. I love you my kiddos now and forever....