Why Am I Still Alive?

Why am I still alive? I no longer have purpose, I no longer have dreams, I no longer have courage, Nor the will for my schemes. Why am I still alive? I live life so aimless, I live life in screams, I live life as garbage, A soul of the seams. Why am I still alive? Someone please answer, I don't want to dive, To the deeper floor of the river.