why?

Why am I lost Without knowing the cost Why do I care Without people giving a dare Why do I act happy When lately im just snappy Why do I suffer Just trying to act tougher I want to be healed Without having to shield No voice to speak When my mind wants to sink I feel abandoned Without having a companion I want to be free So I don't have to flee Not wanting to turn to bad When all I can feel is sad Wanting to be heard But can't even get a word