why

I always keep asking myself why why I'm still here why I'm always crying why I'm always getting the word f****** me why I'm always getting the detachment treatment why why me why I'm always built in his life for what I feel like it's for nothing I feel like I can never accomplish anything in life life whether it's a college, a career, a promotion why I'm always getting gaslight every single day on the inside and out can never understand this part why I love it's so hard to find love is not an option that we cannot fit a broken heart 50 with a bad day and you be all right is this the point of why I'm crying right now Why do I be quiet without telling my man was wrong why he just keeps gaslighting me nobody doesn't understand how it feels to be gaslighted until you go through it yourself I thought the one for me was his value is what God but not I seen for myself once there's no value there's no patterns within the price of trying to be somebody in life but I feel like I've never got caught on how I feel like I never had the prosperity to accomplish anything in life I feel like my spouse only loves me for the benefit of it I feel like my spouse hates me every single day Idk anymoe