why

as i sit back and think about how everything unfolded I start to remember the constant voices of mutual peers.. constantly stating we aren't go for eachother.. toxic.. user.. and I realized that at that time. I wasn't listening to how I felt. I was listening to opinions.. opinions that were never factual they just felt that way at the time. the word toxic is the worst word to ever use for two people who loved eachother so deeply, madly.. and also wete under influences that impaired there judgement.. we're we actually ever unhappy together?.. or we're we just doing what youngins do back then. because i cant think of a moment where I dont think about you or love you. nor regretted meeting you or being with you.. I wonder. if I never partied.. and tried to be liked by everyone.. would we still be together..