why?

why me? I ask myself that everyday, I wonder why everyday, I'm in the dark with no light, no escape, the worst trap me never letting go, the words I start to believe, feeling like I'm never enough, feeling like I don't deserve anything, not loving myself enough, feeling though has nobody loves me, why me? why do I deserve this? what did I do wrong? did I do anything wrong? I get treated like trash every day even though I try, but it never seems like it's enough, why me? why am I like this? why can't I ever seem to love myself? have the words gotten through to me? why me? why do I have to live like this, feeling left out, judge, and not enough, why me? why am I like this? it seems like I do everything wrong, I do so much but it's never enough, I can never live up to my parents' standard, why? why? why? why? why? that question circles my head all the time.