Why?

Why am I not worthy of love? why am I so big? why do I have cellulite? why am I so fat? why dont I feel comfortable in my own skin? why am I nobody's first choice? why do I feel so ugly? why am I an awful sister? why am I an awful daughter? why do I have to take 17 pills every day? why do I have to go to the doctor so much? why cant I just be normal? why do I push people away? why do I have chronic illnesses? why do I suck at softball? why do I feel so unconfident? why am I here?