why

why, why do i feel this way? whyy can't i just be honest? Why does it all hurt so damn much? Why can't i be happy? Why can't i talk or show it? Why do i feel like i feel like i have to be so Fucking strong all the time? I need to tell them how i feel now. I just can't. There's this force that's stopping me. All i can do is write poems about it. Why Xo olivia