why

why do I feel the whole world is against me? why does it seem like nobody gets me? why am I always letting my family down? why do I always end up being the clown? why can't I ever hold down a damn job? why do I feel like I have to deceive and rob? why can't I ever just be a good guy? why do I always have to get high? why do I think that I'm always right? why do I stay with her if all we do is fight? why do I minimize all of my evilness? why can't I ever find my true happiness? why do I always escape to the darkness? why am I always stuck going through this? why does this happen when will this all end? why are my demons really my best friend? why won't this cycle ever be broken? why do I feel like I threw all of my chips in? why you always rushin man you ain't from Russia? why you wanna play roulette you know that bullet is gonna crush ya? why did it take so long for you to get it? why did you have to come back for a second bit? why do I know that I'll never be back again? I finally have an answer for all of these questions.