why?!

why am I even looking for love when my heart is stuck on someone's son why do I search for people who have moved on but I am still waiting for him to come why am I searching for a loyal one when even my heart isn't one why do I search reassurance when I can't even give one why am I thinking love is the one when even my parents showed there is none why so I search for all when I don't become one at all.....