who I am

I don't know who I am anymore I look in the mirror and see a stranger standing in front of me I wonder when the magic of Christmas got lost I wonder when was the last time my dad pushed me on a swing I wonder when was the last time me and my sister played with Barbies together I wonder when was the last time me and my sister were best friends before we just decided to fight over people instead of sticking together I wonder when the excitement of Mom and Dad coming home from work got lost in everyday blur I wonder who I am anymore I know I'm a girl who hates her brain her body her soul I am a girl that hates everything about herself because I can't recognize myself anymore I wonder when the magic of childhood became a burden when playing on my phone became more interesting than playing outside I wonder who I am but the only answer is I don't know anymore because all I do is hide