who am I? pt 1

(Rhino is in reference to JATGP) Who am I? I am an internal infrastructure of intertwining self dispute, in which i have no say in the floor plan; the idea of myself lost in a network of ideologies set only by those who have sought to know me better than i know myself. And in this moment, in this thought, it is the only time i get to meet myself without the forshadowing of self destruction, my own rhino, whos only purpose is to stuff out any sense of self i have left, and in the clear i am replaced again by those ideologies, my reset; for who am I to be anyone else outside of the expectations; to live, to breathe and to function as a perfect representation of the ideals, and with this i find that yet again i am not me. who am i? who am i? I don't know anymore