Who am I

What do you want to become in future? What are your plans after graduation? What do you want to do with your life? All these questions that seemed so far away have now become urgent frags I need to answer to Little me would have answered with joy and expectations but now these questions just make me anxious Too much work to make it big, it's not even my dream, I don't know what I want but I know what I don't want so I just follow the flow trying to take everything I can, that's not a wise strategy I know but it's the only I've got I just hope I won't live in regret, I'm sincerely already tired, I look forward to nothing and I'm filled with fear of doing wrong, I don't even want to escape the system because I don't know where I will go, i don't wish for anything, I just don't want to suffer I don't know if this is normal and do hope it is, for my expectations are all down, staying down after one blow is shameful but I don't want to standup again, am I that bad?