Where you go?

I woke up and you weren't there to hold. Where you go? I hold my pillow because you are not here to hold me. I look for you I couldn't find you. I close my eyes maybe I am still sleepy. When I open my eyes. You were tells gone. I am alone in my bed. Just me and my pillow. I squeeze my pillow close to me. Because I need something to comfort me. Because you weren't here. Reach for you but you were here with me. I feel so alone. Wake up from a nightmare is hard when you don't have anyone to hold you. I feel like something is missing. The feeling you get when you wake up. Before I close my eye you were here. When I open my eyes you were gone. Where did you go? I wonder where you were here. Or it was a dream. My Pillow never lifts me. Not like you. When I need you to hold me. You are never around. So I decided to sleep alone. Just me and my pillow. I don't need you to sleep with me. Because you were never there for me. You are in your world. That I am not in part of. Only me and my dreams. That you try to put it into a nightmare. When I try to reach you. You are not there. I look at the door to see you up the door. But you are not there. Just emptiness comes over me. So I just grab my pillow and hold it close to me.