where is that key.. at..??

hurting when I open my eyes ... hurting in my heart ... hurting in my body ... depression sits down next to me with a cup of coffee and asks me wtf I am looking at ?? .. ... motativation is the key that has been misplaced ... I can't open up with out knowledge of my situation and how I got here... understanding is a concept ... not given unless .... understood... natural is her raw ness ... how real is her soul .. how beautiful I see her .. and yet .. I've fallen and I draged her down to the pit as well ❤️‍🩹.. unfair is a word used a lot lately ... but I know how to get up and continue ... just as long as I keep on searching for that key I should b back to normal n no time