where is my heart safe?

It's like I would stand on the cliff try to figure out if I should take the jump or just go back home should I take the risk or should I go to find my peace what if I decide to jump? would you catch me in your arms? or would I dive into the deep ocean so deep that I,.. I long for the air to breathe again in order to be on the surface as soon as possible to swim to the shore where it's safe