Where I Am Now .....

Caught in the hell that I call my life. I'm not trying to find love or become another wife. I've already tried it four times over. But as they went along, I got older. One, I was too young. We went in different directions. Two was the longest, but we didn't have a connection. The best thing that come from it was my son, I must admit. Three rocked my world. My eyes opened up for the first time, I felt love. In the end, he committed suicide, even though he was abusive, I died from the inside. Four was supposed to be it. The one I had it made with. He had money so I wouldn't worry about my future. But he ended up being the worst abuser. It wasn't about getting help. It was about acceptance. He wore my clothes now it's past tense. So as I sit here and write, I'm moving forward just as I like. I will adapt and over come. I choose to stay and fight not pick up and run. So now I choose myself. I'm asking God for a little help. I'm finding myself and that's what matters. So don't ever fall for someone that don't matter. You can learn so much just by listening. Give it time and don't rush things. In the end, you'll see the joy it brings. Be patient and kind. It'll get you far in this thing called life....