Where do I go from here

My mind is racing I can’t stop or ignore it I prayed about it, but don’t know if He heard it My heart is torn My body is worn My head is talking crazy I don’t know where to turn All I want to do is run I don’t have much patience to listen I’m scared of what I can do I know that I have demons They want to come out and play Yet trying hard to keep them caged Every step I make I do it with caution For I never know when the ground will open up and swallow me Everyone saying it’s ok to not be ok But I need more help than words I need guidance I need someone to show me the way The way to peace The way to comfort The way to live without heartbreak The way to love without getting hurt The way to live without going beserk My heart is torn My body is worn My head is talking crazy I don’t know where to turn All I want to do is run Finding it hard to persuade me that this is my life clearly Mistakes made and lessons learned Tired of being alone Just want to be loved by the one I love Just want peace where there is chaos Want to live life not chase living Tired of the double standards called living My heart is torn My body is worn My head is talking crazy I don’t know where to turn All I want to do is run