where am I ?

Lost in my mind, in somewhere crowd My own thoughts threatening me, I heard, it was crazier loud I beg for peace, again and again, But this journey has never been easy. Sometimes, I found myself floating in the sea, Or burning in the desert heat. "Where am I?" I ask, My mind whispers, "Do you really wanna know?" And pulls me into the ocean, deeper and deeper. No one believes in me, not even my family. Now, my own mind questions me. Every moment of my life, "Where are you?" it asks. I stand on the road, waiting to be hit, It's hard to cry with the close eye Everyone has a home, but mine's just a house. Surviving's hard when you're dead inside. "Where am I?" My family asked The question hits me hard like stone hit glass. I close my teary eyes, And I was in the place where bone meets soul, But my spirit die in the crumbles of bone. I was there where everyone smiling on my open wounds, I was at the lake getting hunted again and again, Lying, dying, screaming in a pain Remembered when, I was a bright star in the sky. Now, after one failure, Everyone asks the same question: "Where am I?" I'm tired, on my knees like a defeated soldier, Waiting for death, which seems way more kinder.