When Im older Ill understand..

He complimented me, well not me my body he liked seeing me walk in front of him, maybe so I wouldnt trip, what a nice man and he liked it when we played dress up especially when I wore short skirts he said he was a fan as well when I wore heels and shirts that you could see more of me well not me my body I was hot, sexy, alluring n seductive he said it was hard to turn away from a slutty beauty like me he said he could fill the holes I had in my heart but I dont think that was entirely his intention and he knew that too Maybe I wasnt 18 or had my period yet but to him I was a woman and should be treated like one but he gave me something similar to a period cause I bled. I guess it was similar cause I didnt ask for it, just like any other period, he said I should like that, and love the attention but Im not sure why, I knew it was wrong so why did I continue to let him give me that attention he said this is what love feels like and how it should be shown to sexy girls like me I was a tease to him n everyone around now im a disgusting whore who needs to be put in her place and only should be for his and others pleasure but isnt this what love is?isnt this how love should feel?what being a woman feels like like?