when I close my eyes

I walk down the streets, close my eyes, try to regain my strength, I relive those moments, the fright I feel, the big lump I feel at the back of my throat, I feel my heart sink into my stomach, I'm fine, I'm okay, I tell myself, I'm fine, I'm okay, but am I, these cobble paths I once walked with ease, will never be the same as they used to