when does the pain go away

I'm on the edge of a cliff and I'm ready to jump because of the memories that I have with you is when I lost the only woman that I thought I would ever love I felt like I lost everything because what you did when you tried to pin an innocent child on me and I hope I never see you again I would love for my life to change but it's unbearable without her when you shut me out because you wanted me to die to my heart broke into pieces when she left this world and you make up lies saying that I had sex with you on a school bus in front of her and that shit never happened but what did happen was you gave your phone to your mother or your boyfriend after I told you that she died and told them to tell me that you were in a relationship you sorry bitch then you walk out on your children and have the gall to call yourself a good mother I'm glad you and I ain't married and your sisters friend is the same damn way you remember that one that was hitting on me all the time asking me to go live with her and telling me that she was leaving her husband at least she was tellin the truth but i don't care I'm not trusting a bitch that is going to hit on a guy while she's married to another man I've learned from my mistake with you