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I can't find the words to express how I feel How do one deal With this pain,this darkness I always thought I was fearless Until the fear of losing you became reality I think about you daily I still see your smile I still hear your cry But every passing day I have to except that you lay In the arms of our Father My heart can't take it any longer I wish for one last smile for one last cry But everyday I have to wake up and realize you are gone And I am alone How does one move on? If he was your only son How does one just forget When you have 6 months of regret When does this pain go away? Maybe once I lay, Down my head this ache will go away But until that day I have to live without you Without your smile Without your cry I didn't even have time so say goodbey It feels like yesterday I held you in my arms But the alarms In my head won't shut down for even a second When does the tears stop? When does the darkness become light? When does the memory of you make me happy? All I have now are the memories The dreams The screams